What do I give to myself when I’m done giving to you? Who goes first? Was it good for you, baby? Did you cum? Or was that pain I saw when I was busy just getting myself off? Did I go down that rabbit hole for your benefit, for our benefit as a community, or because I like the way I feel when I’m in control?

I’m sitting in the discomfort today. I haven't made music for a few days, there hasn’t felt like enough of a solid block of time where I’m not doing something else. I’ve been prioritizing other things. I need to prioritize myself and my own creative practice. Not because the generosity of other structures isn’t generative for me, but because the practice is their foundation.

The only person that can fill the hole inside you is yourself. If you don’t give it to yourself first, you have nothing to give to another.